Puppy Love

Here is some Puppy Love!

Shats OUT! @ 5:35 PM 1 comments

Changing my Love!

So forever now I have been obsessing over getting a dog. All I wanted was a Cavalier cause they are like a cocker spaniel only smaller. Well folks, I have changed my ways. Now I want a Westie.
Reasons For Switching To A Westie!
1. They are smaller than a Cavalier and living in a apartment that is a big factor.
2. They don't shed! How can you bet that.
3. They are easily trained dogs. ( I will train my dog! I promise!)
4. They are way cheaper. We are talking anywhere from 350-650 vs a Cavalier was going to set me back 1200!
5. Mom loves them. An factor to have in case I need her to help fort out some of the money for one. Plus she has offered to babysit if I get a Westie.
6. They are just so stinkin cute.

So with the Month of May pretty much here I will be looking every weekend. My ideal is to get the dog when school is out (MY BIRTHDAY!!!) so that I can be home with the puppy and take care of it and train it so that when I go back to school the dog will be ok to stay home by itself. Now we just need to come up with a name?

Shats OUT! @ 5:17 PM 0 comments

Slacker!

I know I'm slackin!!! I havent had time people! Maybe today I can get in some free time while the kids are playing to catch up! MAYBE!!!

PEACE!

P.S. Im a myspace whore now. Thanks Misty!

Shats OUT! @ 6:38 AM 2 comments

All About Me!

So I got an email today from my ex which was a whole bunch of pictures of himself giving these looks to the camera now that he has lost a lot of weight. I guess he wanted his friends to see him "hot". But I am looking at these pics saying, no wrong angle, you look stoned, or oh that looks painful. So who else but me would know how to take a pic of themselves! Ive done it a thousand times! Im like the pro of taking pics of themselves. So I thought I would go through my collection and share a few with you...
(this is only a small portion of my collection!)


Then I came across this pic....



Look at how fat my face is!!!! I was 230 there! Crazy huh! Now Im this hot thing...



Thats right! As of this morning I have lost 39lbs from that pic. Dont ya wish your girlfriend was hot like me? Bitches!!!

Shats OUT! @ 9:22 PM 3 comments

Happy Easter!

First want to say Happy Easter to everyone out there. My mom DROVE to Oklahoma to visit my grandmother for this holiday so I am left all alone. I have had a few offers to do something on this day but I havent quite decided what I want to do. I may go to church in the morning and just reserve the rest of the day to scrapbooking. I havent scrapbooked in a long time and I have Beckers wedding planner that I so need to finish.
Having a three day weekend has been great. I have done nothing school related and probably wont. There is just something that happens to teachers when they only have 30 more days left of school. You just dont care anymore, which is so bad, but so true. My classroom needs to be cleaned, but why, kids will just mess it up again. And instead of spending my weekend coming up with some fun activities or planning for the week, I will just feed off of other teachers or just "wing" it. Im a bad teacher, I know! haha
So on Friday was a good day. Slept in, went to my docs appointment, meet Miss M! at the scrapbook store and made my roomates B-Day card. And because our school is having an Auction Dinner to help raise money for the school, there was a pet store that had donated some items. So off me and Miss M went to go get the stuff. Now this was a pet store that had pupies that you got to go and play with all the puppies. It was so much fun. Actually playing with the puppies just keeps me in track on how much I want one. I was asked "you really want a dog dont you" and my answer is yes. I want something that is mine. I want something to take care of, and I want something to love and it love me back. Its like a better choice than having a baby. You can be single and raise a dog. Miss M! bought me a stamp that says "Forget looking for the right man. Get a dog!" Those shall be the words I live by!

Shats OUT! @ 9:39 AM 1 comments

192

So do you notice the turtle up there? That's right folks he has moved to 192!!! Can you believe it? I don't know what I did cause I've only gone to the gym once this week but whatever it is I am lovin it! Who would have thunk it that back in Nov 04 I was a fat cow weighing 230! Most guys weight that much. So I am setting a goal of 187 by my 28th birthday. That is little over a month to lose 5 pounds. We shall see!

Shats OUT! @ 9:18 AM 0 comments

Got My Hair Did!

Got a new do. Whadda think?

Shats OUT! @ 9:52 PM 2 comments

Make it Hurt!

So I figured out a way to make something stop hurting. Make something else hurt. That's where the gym comes into play. I was on a treadmill running until my legs hurt, my chest hurt, till I was about to pass out. Is this a good thing to do? Probably not. Helped keep my mind off of things and I see this as being a good way to drop some serious pounds. Skinny Bitch here I come!

Shats OUT! @ 7:29 PM 1 comments

Puppies, puppies, puppies

So yesterday I found it easy to keep myself busy. I was doing my weekly looking online of puppies and I found a lady selling them for 975. I called and she invited me over to go see them. Knowing how happy I would be around puppies I took her on that offer. First though I had a facial at Nordstrom compliments of going to their trend show a month ago. Grabbed Miss M! and off we went. The facial was nice. Learned some interesting things about what to do and not do to your face. She asked me what would I change about my face. I grew a blank. I mean ask me what I would change about me or my body and I can give you a million things. But my face. I kinda like it the way it is. I just told her I would like it to be skinner. It wasn't the answer she was looking for.

So afterwards we went off to the puppy mill. Now it was an older woman and she was doing this for extra cash since she was retired. The puppies were so cute! We even got to hold one that was only a few weeks old. I loved being there with the puppies and everything else that I'm dealing with just went away. That's why I know I need a dog. I need something to take care of and get my mind off of the crap I seem to have in my life. So I went outside to go look at the older dogs. They weren't pretty dogs. They were either to big or looked like they are overeating or their eyes popped out of their heads. Defiantly not show dogs. And one of them was shedding like crazy. So it makes me wonder. Is this what I really want. We said our thank you and off to the scrapbook store to work till midnight it was.

So I don't know. I know I want a dog but now I am questioning myself on what kind I want. I could go with a Shitzu which are supper cute puppies and they don't shed but for some reason to me they look pissed off when they are older. I could get a westie which are very cute dogs and they also don't shed as much either. But I love cocker spaniels but I just feel like they are too big for an apartment and god only knows when I will ever live in a house. See even getting a dog isn't easy! GEEZ!

Shats OUT! @ 1:00 PM 1 comments

Songs of the day

I think Rob Thomas says it best that I dont want to be lonely no more!

http://www.virgin.net/music/musicvideos/robthomas_lonelynomore_hi.html

Oh and this too cause this is how my heart breaks.

http://www.virgin.net/music/musicvideos/robthomas_thisishowaheartbreaks_hi.html

Shats OUT! @ 10:01 AM 1 comments

Moving on up

Here it is 4am and I cant sleep. I'm tossing and turning, crying off and on, and actually I feel like I'm going to puke. So I sit here and think which makes matters worse. I come across the thought of moving. Of getting the hell out of here. What do I have here? Why stay? Maybe I need a change. Then I was thinking where I would go. I could go back to Oklahoma but I don't think that would help much. But I probably could easily get a teaching job. I even thought about the lady that is selling her scrapbook store in Portland and seeing if mom could get the loan and we could buy it and start a store just like we thought we would. But of coarse that means talking Miss M! into moving too. But with a store I would be working all the time and where would that time to "get out there and move on" be. Guess I can go back to trying internet dating if I took on a store that would take up all my time. Or maybe I just need to go somewhere. Throw a dart on a map and just go. Of coarse I do realize that I have friends that I love dearly here and the would be the hardest thing to let go since I am such a people person and have to have people around me. But I feel like maybe I have done everything in this state that I could of and there really isn't anything left. Everyone else has their lives and their boyfriends/husbands. I don't know. Those are just my thoughts at 4 in the morning!

Shats OUT! @ 4:06 AM 0 comments

Dunzo!

I know it has been awhile since I have posted. I really didn't have much to say except I am healing well from having my teeth taken out, back to work on the grind stone and everything else has been happening like it should. Except for today. I can officially say that I am single! Now I know I said this before but for today I am tried and true with it. And all of you are going to say "What happened, I know things were going so well between the two of you?"
Well he cheated, and as a song from rent would say "he fucking cheated". That's all I have to say. I am too old and have gone through this several times to know that one it will never get better and two it will never work out. I cant look at him the same way ever again. I lost someone I loved, truly cared about and a good friend. I have found myself in a place I was once before with my heart literally broken into several pieces that will take several months to put back together again. Will I get over this? Yes. But the pain I feel right now is overwhelming. All I want to do is love and be love, that is sooo obvious. But the fact that I am about to turn 28 and I have no one in my life does scare me. I have gone through a life of hurt and pain because of men and my father is the start of it all. So what do I do know? I cry, I cry myself to sleep, and probably for several nights. I go back to being single and hope and pray I don't find myself in that depression stage that I will never find anyone. Maybe I start looking on the internet. Apparently that is the place to find some lovin. I don't know! I don't know what to do or where I am right now. All I know is that I'm hurt and I might be very distant from people for a while. So bare with me. I just might take tomorrow off of work. Poor kids don't need to see me like this!

Shats OUT! @ 11:43 PM 1 comments