This Sucks!

Its only day two! Its so stinkin hard. I keep looking at my phone to see a text from him. I wait for a phone call telling me he is coming over to hang out. I wake up in the morning and roll over to find no one there. I want to text him this morning to wish him a good day. I had a routine. I was used to that routine.

I know with time that things will get better. I know that I am strong and will get over this. I know that I will find somebody else. But what if I don't want to? What if I just want to stay at home and not go out? What if I just want cry every time I think about him? What if I just don't want to date anymore just for the sake of not having to go through a heart ache again? What if I think that maybe down the road when he figures things out in his head that we can try this again?

I really liked him. I liked the way he made me feel when I was with him. Maybe our only downfall is we met at the wrong time. Maybe my downfall is I try to rush things.

I do think that this blog is the best thing I have. I love that I can just write down what I am thinking. And truly I don't care who reads it. These are my thoughts. I need to get them out!

Shats OUT! @ 5:24 AM